From my award acceptance "Hall of Fame" Legends of Erotica

Minka my best friend by my side , Debi Diamond to the right.

My bestest buddy in the industry "Ron Jeremy".

I'm so happy androidman sent me these links, as I was a total nervous wreck I forgot to bring a digital camera. But here are some pics finally, enjoy!

Raising Money

I spent the day cleaning my name brand items and jewelry, shoes, purses, clothes to sell around town at consignment stores. I raised some money. I just want to pay off my daughters 3 months hot lunch meals. About $53 a month and have enough money for the next 4 months of rent for my break to meet the 3 times a week treatments from the car accident $695 (No Fault on my end dude, holidays are always dangerous on the road huh?). Yeah, where I live, they left me a note on my door that I had to pay $300 for him to move in, and an extra $20 a month now. I'd totally die without my dog or my daughter dude! So I ran around 2 days ago borrowing money to pay to keep him as my roomie. I love him so much. My daughter loves him so much. I signed up for a 8 month lease. I have 3 months left, and I have to move to a smaller 2 bedroom house or live in that cramped up battered womens shelter. I hated it, and my daughter sleeps in the bed with me in a cot, similar to a military one. Women are already angry, and they make me do chores to live there. ARRRGHH! I'm totally OCD, I don't like unsanitary things. But what I have to do in life to completely get out of porn and tours, I have sucked in my pride and went to the government and lawyers for help finally. Dang, I must be growing up. I'm trying to diminish my videos and magazines from the shelves so by the time my daughter is old enough she won't have to ask me about it. After all her 4 year college is paid, and I'm getting out of porn!!!! My dad and mom is pissed off all these victimized things have not been followed up on, they are ready to drag me overseas protected. I'm trying, I'm trying. Oh, by the way my WISHLIST has new items I need for necessities. LOVE, MIMI

Again?

Wish I had this because I don't know how I will my rent for the next 6 months and gas.

I heard Bush is trying to get a "Pell Grant F0r Kids", please Congress agree! So I can still afford to pay for my daughters private school.

After a car accidents on the 7th. I went to accept my award, knowing I was internally bleeding and have bruises on my chest and seatbelt was fun to cover before the show. Since I had only a few money I forced myself to go to New York. 2 people who know my real condition donated a little bit of money so I could pay my rent this month. My dad paid my utility bills, returned my cable box and downsized all week. I had a Neurologist appt. Tue, picked up some more "Protonix" to stop the internal bleeding, and some medication for my head because it was hit really hard on the glass window of the drivers seat. Then I went back Thursday for an EMG, found out I had far more injuries than I had thought. I have $400 to my name, unable to work. Waiting for my Medicaid because my condition is very very expensive to keep alive. So I just ask for half or a week of medication. At I'm still fed every month, my roomate helps alot if he has some money for my , well female monthly things. EEEWWW.,. heehehhe... I owe alot of money to the IRS, but thats ok, I have friends helping me pay the monthlies. All I really worry about is the Utilities (I'm on energy assistance) so it's lowered alot, I get free food from state, I worry about coming up with the rest of the Utilities state doesn't pay, or my $675 rent, and my $18 gas bill to drive my daughter to school, and her hot lunches ($52 monthly). I scrape, sell anything to keep her in a Christian school. But I am keeping the faith and positive thinking and after all my treatments, GEEEZ another 1 or 2. If I can't come up with the rent anymore, I have to move back home to the Philippines. I cry everyday of that possibility if I have I have to leave the USA, because only in the Philippines my parents can afford to keep me alive.
But I refuse to abandon my child!

"Legends of Erotica Winner"

Getting ready for the awards show.

Well, I finally did it. I got an award for something in the adult industry. Funny thing is that the award is considered the highest honor. Weirdest thing is I never got an award from the AVN "best this" "best this" chick. Whatever. 16 years. I've retired from making porn. Since starting my mainstream baby steps couple years back. Hoping my dreams will come true.

Close to being a star on the wall...

Picture signing in 1994.
I'll do this "Legends of Erotica Hall of Fame Honor" in Rememberence of me.
With my name on honored. Finally!

Show Girl Video in Las Vegas NV 8pm

Finally getting honored after 16 years of duty to the adult world. Hooray!

Today, I did a bunch of feng shui things in my new place, to shoo out the dark energies, and leave the light spirits only here. Yeah I'm into metaphysical things. Love it.

1 on 7th 2008

Dude, holidays are just nuts here in Vegas. I was getting my mail from my apt complex then got in my car and seat belted, looked to the left, put the car in rear, looking to the left and around me nobody around, no cars moving and, BAMMMM!!!! I get side swiped... I was on my way to pick up my kid. We exchanged information and then I was on my way. This happened at 1:40pm.

Driving down Desert Inn Rd. I get rear ended AGAIN! From a green jeep wrangler that said 4.0 , we pull over. He asks me is that a rent a car? I'm thinking, hmmm... how would he know that it doesn't even say loaner on the plates or anywhere on the car it's from a rent a car place. Then he starts yelling calling me bitch stupid ya dad dad adadddadd da. Then he goes "Do you know what a CCW is?" I'm taking this as a threat. Great, I have to get my kid, and this guy is threatening me with a gun. WHATEVER! Then he took off.... Weird. He didn't even want to exchanged infomation? Lame. Anyways, the right side of my neck is hurt, my 2 left ribs on left side are bruised, now I have a cold from all this stress. Both my wrists are wrapped in black wrist bands. I don't think I will make the AVN show. But I will show up to the "Showgirls" Legends of Erotica. Promise. So I can put my hands on cement and be put up on the "Hall of Fame thingy".

Breakin?

Yesterday I was in the kitchen trying to do laundry, and all of a sudden I heard my front door banging. Seeing the door knob turning and someone trying to push it open. I was so scared I went into the bathroom and had to go.... When I went out of the bathroom, I ran upstairs because that is where I can only see what cars drive outside of my place. A gray SUV with 2 Asian people. WAIT? The bad car accident I got into last week, was an Asian too! I don't know what is going on, yeah I've hung around bad guys before, it's part of my pornstar business. I have no idea, what is going on. I want to write everything going on in case something happens to me. So please, if you see me as an Anna Nicole Smith, tell the authorities, I've been keeping track of it on my blog. Thankyou! I love you all!